I want to be FLAWLESS

Today I was told that I have naturally flawless skin. I twist up the corners of my mouth and smile and shake my head. I don’t have flawless skin. It is naturally red and blotchy and not attractive. So you wear makeup? Yes I do all the time. If I don’t wear it, my face actually looks worse because I will breakout. Really? Yes really.
This is the first time I have ever been told that my skin looks naturally flawless. I was really surprised when I was told this!

It has been said that for every insult told to you, it takes about 100 compliments to reverse it. When you have lived most of your life being insulted in school and at home, by the time you are 23, believing a compliment is hard.

Believing that someone would choose to pursue you and love you and give their son for your life is even harder!

I had missed a couple weeks of church before today. So when I went today, my heart felt heavy. I wasn’t sure why I was feeling this way since I hadn’t felt this way prior to walking into the building. I was greeted immediately by multiple people whom I love to see each week. The first part of worship wasn’t nearly as worshipful from my heart as it normally is and partly because I didn’t know that songs. That is no excuse because my heart still should have be filled with joy and worship for it being Sunday and being in the presence of the Great I AM!!
The sermon was about grace and man did that hit me so hard. I don’t deserve grace or the love of God, but I have been given it each moment of my life for almost 3 years now. I felt called to go to the alter and pray after communion and as I was praying, a woman who I am so thankful for came and prayed over me. What wasn’t know was how much I needed that prayer. Knowing that someone was praying for me and loving me at that moment was an act of God sending her to pray over my life.

I that moment I was able to see how sinful my actions and thoughts and words have been lately and understood why I was feeling a weight on my heart. I knew that something had been wrong lately, but I just couldn’t place my finger on it.
As I was being told that I had flawless skin, it popped into my head that I truly want to be flawless in all aspects of my life.

When I say I want to be flawless I am not meaning to be perfect and to go around acting as if I am perfect and without sin in my life. I mean that I want to fight to be flawless. I want to go to work and be flawless in the work that I do making as few mistakes as possible. I want to go to Church on Sunday’s and have a heart that is focused on God and the cross. I want to be at home and be loving toward my family. I want everyone who comes into contact with me to see that I am flawless and to question how I live such a flawless life. I want to be perfect as Matthew 5:48 says…”Therefore you are to be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.”  

It is impossible to actually be perfect! But since God knew that we are not able to be without sin as he clearly states in Romans 3:23, “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” So God sent Jesus to die for us on the cross (John 3:16). So how do I want to live flawlessly? It is simple… I want to live according to Romans 1:16 and be unashamed of the Gospel. I want to live according to Jude 1:24 “Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy.” I want to ask to God to take temptations out of my way so that I do not stumble or fall over my own feet or stand in my own way of bringing glory to the Father who gives me enough grace to sustain my every being. To live according to 1 Corinthians 10:13, “No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it. To live according to the fruit of the Spirit in Galatians 5:22-23, “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control, against such things there is no law. I have to ask God to bless me with these things that are gifts from him. By my own being… I am very impatient, have a lack of self-control in my own areas of my life as this is different for each person, and don’t tend to love others the way that Christ has called me to love. God gives me these things and I have to keep asking him for them because they can easily be stolen by the world.

I need to obey Matthew 11:28, “come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. 2 Corinthians 12:9 can be lived out by knowing remembering that, “And He has said to me. ‘My grace is sufficient for you for power is perfected in weakness’ Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
God is not done working in me or you and he will not be until the day we meet him! Philippians 1:6, “For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”

I want to become flawless! I want to become perfect in Christ! I want to strive to look like Jesus each day! Will I meet these expectations, NO because I am human and since the fall in Genesis 3, I am destined to fall short. God knew that we were not able to be perfect, but he wants us to try to be like the one person who though tempted and tried never fell into sin. Jesus knew what we were facing in the world. He knows how hard the world is for the believer 2000 years ago and even today. The temptations from 2000 years ago and the temptations of today are the same they just come in more ways today than they did back then. They are everywhere we turn today where 2000 years ago, there wasn’t billboards and TV to flash the greed we have or the sexual desires we crave!

I will keep fighting the good fight to be flawless, but I want to be flawless despite all the flaws that get pointed out in my life in insults or by other believers who have a good heart and truly care about my spiritual well-being, or if it coming in the form of criticism, or if God is just blatantly pointing out my sinful desires and ways to me through lack of time with him or lack of time in fellowship with my brothers and sisters. This is an impossible task, but it is one that I will take to the Lord in prayer and wage a war against my own shameful and sinful desires and the world that stirs these desires up inside of me each day.

Do you want to be flawless?

Will you join me in fighting the good fight?
Will you boast in your weaknesses?
Will you finish the race and know that God is the one you are going to spend the rest of your eternity with?

Will you let grace be sufficient for you?

Let God make you flawless!!
The flawed disciple

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